My heart was beating almost as if it was everywhere.
Not just inside my chest.
But inside the two hundred and fifty humans that were waiting to hear me speak.
It was on the walls of the conference room.
Inside the mic on my blouse.
On the stage.
Like a storm of heartbeats.
That is how scared I was.
I walked towards the stage.
I started to speak.
Word after word.
Step after step.
I started to move the storm.
And make me a part of it.
I became the storm.
I walked with it, spoke with it.
Was with it.
“You are not controlling the storm, and you are not lost in it. You are the storm.” Sam Harris
For everything I had to become, I first had to scare myself.
I don’t really know how others change.
For me it has always been a scary experience.
This is also why loss broke me in an unmended way.
I was not controlling the storm, I was lost in it.
And could not become it. Not for years.
But even now, the planes I tried to fly, the books I wrote, the talks I have given, the companies I started, the people I loved and lost have all been born inside a storm.
I learned something while inside the storms of my life.
The storm is part of your soul.
Without the storm you would not be human.
Without the storm the stage would not be there, love neither.
The storm is what connects you to the outside world.
So tell me, what is your relationship with your storm?
When life is calling you and the storm takes your breath away, do you still step out?
And if you do, remember that the storm is not going to be scary forever.
You will become it and will be on your way to your next chapter, your next love, your next adventure. You have always been the storm.
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