I am not going to lie, I am tired.
Moving from one reality to another requires your brain to be going into manual gear 24/7.
Nothing is familiar. Everything is new.
Even when you go to the bathroom in the middle of the night you have to really wake yourself up to find it.
No turn inside or outside the house is on default.
Everything has to be thought through.
Everything is a conscious experience.
The brain has to be alert all the time.
No wonder we don’t like to change.
We miss steps. We spill coffees. We hurt our toes in unseen corners.
And that’s the least of our problems.
It’s as if the old reality is trying hard to stay with us.
But it can’t.
In a few days though the brain will start to get used to the new life and memorize all the new people, corners, bathrooms, names, places.
And before we know it, it will feel as if we have been here forever.
I have to tell you, it feels as if I walked inside a different universe.
It’s tiring but so exciting to see who I get to be here.
I am holding on to all the newness however hard it feels.
I want new habits, new likes and dislikes.
I want to be someone else.
I know it sounds weird to say this.
It’s not because I didn’t like the old Christina, but because I want to choose who I am instead of who I was born to be genetically and circumstantially.
Maybe I like to jog every day.
Maybe I like fruits and vegetables haha.
I have received so many emails from people who followed along with my move to tell me they are also moving.
Or that they just moved.
That it was hard but they did it.
I am so proud of us.
We are the ones who can do this because of what we have been through.
And as you know, I always say you can do the impossible because you have been through the unthinkable.
If we can’t move from one place to another, from one reality to a chosen new one.
Then, who can?
We are the superheroes of our world.
And if you haven’t been able to see yourself this way, you should start today.
You are special because of what you have been through.
Here’s to many new lives inside this one.
Where you get to choose who you are and where you want to make a home for yourself.
With a brand new life,
P.S. Make sure you register for my Life Reentry workshop at the Omega Institute here: https://www.eomega.org/workshops/life-reentry-after-loss
PPS. And listen to the new podcast here: www.dearlifepodcast.com