My Own Story of 2020
“We tell ourselves stories in order to live” my favorite author Joan Didion often reminds me. As I am putting words on paper for the final letter of 2020 I am thinking about the story I want to tell. And what a better day to tell it, on December 25th. It matches the non-traditional clothes […]
Dating The Holiday Season Once Again
It is ok if some things that are meant to be easy, feel hard to do. Don’t compare yourself to others. If something feels hard, it is hard. Someone else’s experience with it, can’t change yours. This goes for everything. Including grief. Including Christmas. The Holiday Season makes some people happy and others sad. Hearing […]
It Found You Crying in Front of the TV
I don’t know how it comes back, but it does. It comes knocking on your door. Even though you can barely notice it at first. I am talking about the feeling of wanting to live again. I know you never thought it would come back. You didn’t believe it could find you. But it did. […]
The Inheritance
I have been more emotional lately. I know you have too. There is something in the air. Isn’t there? Something ungraspable. Unknowable. Quite unspoken. Even though we do speak of it. I see it in people’s eyes. Heaviness sitting inside emptiness. How do we even begin to understand it? A burden like no other. It […]
Millions of Souls Are Thinking of You
I am writing to you late on Thanksgiving evening, and I can’t stop thinking of you. I want to know about your day. Were you on your own? Did you have to cook a meal for one? I tried to guess the number of people who were not able to be with their families, and […]
A New Fork in The Road
Today, I was reminded of the joy of a new adventure. The unknown path ahead. The fork in the road. Oh I felt young again. I rejoiced. I was nauseous just before it. My brain casting a spell of darkness. And yet, when I leaped inside the unknown I felt elation. The kind I had […]
My Hard Won Truths
Lately the whole world has been suffering a lot more than usual. So today I decided to share with you my very own hard won truths that are helping me through this difficult time. Of course it doesn’t mean that I am not impacted by current events, it just means that I am able to […]
Soothe What Needs Soothing
No matter where you live, or the kind of life you have. This week is hard on everyone. People with easy or hard lives. Optimists and pessimists. Wealthy or poor. Every race and ethnicity. When the ship we are all in, feels lost in the ocean we have a sinking feeling. The longer it takes […]
Changing Chairs
I always write this letter from inside my own life. From day one I have promised myself to sit and write it no matter what is taking place, for me. There have been times (not often) when a heartbreaking moment happens on the same day as this letter has to be written and I feel […]
The Floorless Life
Once upon a time, a day came that took everything from you. And you crumbled at the nothingness. And you stepped inside of it looking to find something, anything to hold on to. But there was nothing. Nowhere to even put your knees on, so you could kneel and pray. You searched where you thought […]