On The Mend
Christina’s 12 year old weekly blog
Something Inside of Me Has Always Been Here
I know it has been a while since I last wrote to you. But it has been one fascinating year […] The post Something
How to Make Trees
What does it mean to feel your feelings and be with them? Hold them. Hold them as if it is not too much for
The Quiet Pain
I jammed my thumb in the door of my car last Saturday. The door closed completely. Not just a little bit. But all the way,
The Outside Heart
If someone painted me, they would have to paint my heart outside of my chest. It is hanging there, feeling, experiencing. My heart processes everything
Loss of Connection Does Not Mean Loss of Love
It is in the gathering of our family and friends that we see ourselves. It is at the dinner table and the get togethers that
The Glue Under Your Feet
It may seem unending. Your shoulders, shuddering. The day, unyielding. But did you know you can bear the loss? It may be easier for me
It Found You Crying in Front of the TV
I don’t know how it comes back, but it does. It comes knocking on your door. Even though you can barely notice it at first.
Grief Woke Me Up and Now I Can’t Go Back to Sleep
I was completely blind before loss. Actually no, not blind. Hypnotized. Going about my day, as a wife, mother of toddlers, friendly neighbor, you know
Don’t Ask Me How Long Grief Lasts
“How long does grief last?” Someone asked me the other day. “You still write about it Christina, 11 years later. Are you still grieving?” I
Have You Been Afraid of Your Next Self?
It feels quiet. Listening to Billie Holiday, I’ll be seeing you. A few days away from finishing my next book, Where did you go? The
Your Small Bathroom Window
I grew these last few weeks. And it hurt. It felt as if my skin stretched beyond what it could. Growth is like another person
60 Seconds
I was determined to get there. I wanted to conquer my brain and find a way to not listen to the lies it was internally