All The Things That Were Meant To Be

August 16, 2019

I have a very specific vision of myself. Quietly residing inside my mind.  Comparing itself with the current reality I live in, every day.  It narrates all day long. And it keeps pointing me in her direction.  It used to sound like a broken record.  I would ignore it, until recently.  I realized it was my destiny.  You know what I mean.  The voice inside of you that tells you, it’s meant to be different may be trying to get your attention. It is possible that the version of you it is offering, is meant to be.  I am talking about everything that you don’t have in your life, but you think you should.  All the places you are supposed to visit, but you haven’t just yet.  The way your hair should fall on your face.  And the work you know you can create.  The things you know about yourself and others fail to recognize.  The books you haven’t written, but always wanted.  The recognition you deserve from your family but never gotten.  The connection you are supposed to have with friends.  All the things that you felt were meant to be.  Are really meant to be. (Click to tweet!) And yes, of course, we can’t bring back the people we lost.  And we can’t age backwards.  But the other things. You know the ones I am talking about.  Don’t ignore the voice that tells you you should have them.  Don’t be mad at it.  It’s working hard so you don’t forget all that you deserve.  Don’t question it because it is hard to imagine yourself with so much goodness.  It is all yours for the taking.  Tomorrow morning, when you wake up, listen to it.  And marvel at all your beautiful deservings.   With my destiny calling, Christina P.S. Come and reenter with me at OMEGA end of September. The days we will spend together, will be the most life altering moments after your loss. I will take care of your heart. Register here: https://www.eomega.org/workshops/life-reentry-after-loss

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On Vacation In The UK

August 2, 2019

I am in the UK on vacation with my family so there won’t be a letter today but just a short message to say have a great week and be good to yourself. And...I will leave you with a short excerpt of my latest book Where Did You Go?  Just in case it hasn’t found its way to you yet. “I wrote this book to find the truth about death. Instead, I found the meaning of life. In my pursuit of finding what comes after death, I discovered the dying inside our living. It was simple: death leads us back to life; life leads us to death. I discovered something I didn’t expect, in someplace I never expected: I found divinity in science. The deeper I looked, inside the atoms, protons, molecules, and all theories and experiments and possibilities, there it was: miracles. Every day unexpected moments full of wonder. We call them miracles because we think they’re not normal or frequent experiences. But there’s nothing rare about these miracles. They happen all the time. Imagine this: life is both physical and nonphysical. Those who die, die only for a moment in this reality. In the reality of their consciousness, which persists beyond time, they move to another reality, another world. The other realities, other worlds, are connected to ours. There’s a presence inside us—our Super Watcher—that makes us aware of these other worlds. This presence exists in all realities, all dimensions, along with all the people you’ve loved and lost. To experience these other realities, you just have to learn to see with your eyes closed. In this book, I’m asking you to consider the possibility of a reality without a physical construction. Without what we’ve created as a time constraint. One you must navigate without using your senses. To do so, you must access a nonphysical form from within you, to go beyond your senses and cross over as you did last week and, now, go beyond that threshold. I’m asking you to believe, truly, that you can exit this physical reality when you close your eyes and choose to go where you have not intentionally gone before. Our “real” life isn’t as we perceive it to be. It’s inside a world without gravity and without the depth that we perceive. It’s inside a flat surface. But we see it as a three-dimensional experience. How is this even possible? And why does it matter? The answer to the first question lies in the holographic universe theory. Recently, scientists have found increasing evidence that the entire universe is encoded on a flat surface and that our perceived 3-D reality is a projection from the 2-D reality. In other words, our physical reality is an illusion. Our brain constructs our reality by interpreting frequencies from a reality that is in another dimension outside time and space. Our brain is an interpreter, and it’s interpreting a universe that is holographic. The best way I can illustrate this concept is with the example of 3-D glasses in a movie theater. The glasses take the image from the flat screen and make it three-dimensional. We live inside the flat screen, but it feels as though we live outside it. We’re here to experience this three-dimensional reality, which is a projection from a two-dimensional experience—just like in the movies when we’re wearing the 3-D glasses! To answer my second question—Why does it matter?—once you truly embrace that we live in a holographic universe, your Temple Journeys will become even more meaningful. They will feel—and are—as real as this everyday reality you’re living in. When you can look up from this book and accept that what you see in front of you is more of an illusion than a concrete reality,then the journey you experience inside the Temple World gets to become either equally significant or at least more real than you thought it might be. Ultimately, when you narrow everything down, we live all the way inside the molecules, the atoms, and the photons. There’s so much there. Inside this flat surface where all this lives—it’s all a vibration and a projection. Our consciousness and brain project this reality.” Excerpt from Where Did You? Amazon link: https://www.amazon.com/Where-Did-You-Go-Life-Changing/dp/0062689622 And see you all next week. With London eyes, Christina P.S. I hope the Dear Life Podcast is enriching your life every single week. If you haven’t downloaded the episodes and subscribed please click right here. www.dearlifepodcast.com

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Grief’s Gravity

July 26, 2019

The more awakened you are, the more lonely you feel.  And since grief awakens us, it becomes a lonely experience by default.  The key is to continue to wake up regardless of the isolation you feel.  Regardless of the radical self you are becoming.  Yes, radical.  New and different from the usual.  When one awakens, one becomes anew.  Being awakened is not necessarily better.  Grief bridges you from unreality to reality.  It’s harsh.  Uncomfortable and torturing.  Brutal.  Grief gives us no choice but to wrestle with the truth.  Awake and hurting we find our way to intelligence.  Reality is a complex matter.  Understanding it, requires a lot of introspection while you are brutally awake.  You have to reconsider so much.  And the unrest that comes with that is enormous.  Vast as the sky above you.  Grief has always been explained so simply, it makes me furious.  A broken heart is not just a broken heart.  It is an instrument of coherence.  The break permits the awakening.  Which leads to more pain at first, but in time it brings us all to living a radical life.  Crumbled but radical.  Tired but aware.  Broken, but for the first time in truth.  Banished from the old life and past relationships, suspended until we find the others.  The others, like us.  Galloping from one reality to another.  Looking to make a home away from the darkness of the ones who remain asleep.  Not knowing how, we stumble at first.  Wishing for the grief to go away so we can go back to sleep.  But grief is like gravity, inescapable. (Click to tweet!) Unless we learn how to get to earth’s stratosphere.  A tall order.  But a holy journey for the few who make it through the collision of the two lives.  The two selves. The before and after.  The asleep and the awakened.  The lies and the truth.  Life without any grief provides a comfortable bed that carries no evolution.  And yes, you may not care about evolution, you and I would definitely choose to have our people back, but our world was not made this way.  Not yet.  I do think that there will come a time when we won’t have to die to evolve.  Call me radical. Please. :) But evolution will help us find our way to eliminate death if only we can be born awakened enough to evolve.  This is why your mission should be to stay in the intelligence of grief and build not only sand castles but learn how to make it outside of grief’s gravity.  When we get there, grief will be a thing of the past.  Not for us, but for those who will come after us, hundreds of years from now.  I believe in a world lived inside many dimensions.  Alive. Aware.  And death would never come take us.  With no gravity, Christina P.S. I hope you have enjoyed the new Dear Life Podcast episodes. Check them out here: www.dearlifepodcast.com And if you love the podcast leave a review on itunes.

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The 13 Year Journey To Blue Waters

July 19, 2019

I love people more now than I did before he died.  I love people with nothing.  People who lost everything.  This Sunday it will be Bjarne’s 13 year death anniversary.  I have spent the last 13 years trying to love myself again.  It was harder than expected.  At first I had to start loving others who also lost a lot.  I had to start with loving you.  Compassion for you allowed me to have compassion for me.  But loving myself took the longest.  I have thought about the dance between pain and love.  Darkness and love.  Grief and self-love.  Something breaks down when the two meet.  I wish someone reached out 13 years ago and whispered to me ‘Try to seek joy and gifts for yourself.’  Give to yourself first, then to your kids, then to your future.  Self-love is one of the biggest invisible losses after a major loss.  It is because our old self dies and the ghost self that is present prioritizes survival.  The brain wires itself for just the basics.  And you get used to living in hardship, just getting food and water but nothing else.  As I look back at the 13 year old journey since he died on July 21st 2006, I realize that I didn’t just lose him but the love for myself.  This is something I never expected.  Without love of self we can’t really heal.  No matter where you are on your journey after loss prioritize love for yourself.   Without that, the darkness won’t go away.  The pain won’t stop hurting you.  It’s your own hand that needs to feed you and gift you things you don’t think you need.  Lately, I have found that the gift I needed the most all these years has been freedom.  And the only person that could give it to me, was myself.  I denied it the longest.  A couple of days before he died he whispered to me through his two oxygen masks ‘I wish I stopped working earlier.’  He wished he had given himself more freedom.  Looking back now he did whisper this to me.  I just couldn’t apply it to myself.  But 13 years later, I care less for the things I used to care the most for.  I no longer try to make other people comfortable.  I miss deadlines.  I run away from building big things unless they come chasing me.  Instead, last week I made a list of all the things that make me feel blissful. I am sharing it with you, so you can write yours without having to wait 13 years.  When you write the list ask yourself not what makes you happy but what brings you euphoria and bliss.  It has to be at that level.  Here is what I put together.    Swimming in blue turquoise waters  Painting  Traveling  Learning about the universe  Writing         There are many things I enjoy but these things make me feel euphoric.  I hope I have the chance to live long enough where I am able to live every day doing just these things.  Now it’s your turn, what is your bliss list?  If nothing comes at first, don’t give up.  It’s the only way back to life.  Just merely surviving within our ghost self will never ever be healing. (Click to tweet!) Here’s to your bliss, especially for you my sisters and brothers who lost everything.  With blue waters, Christina  P.S. SEE YOU AT OMEGA: https://www.eomega.org/workshops/life-reentry-after-loss

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