On The Mend
Christina’s 12 year old weekly blog
The Imperfect Self During And After Loss
Who you become while you suffer a loss, is imperfect. The personality that comes through when you are grieving will make plenty of mistakes. It
Let’s Make Up A Brand New Life
Sometimes, witnessing everyone else’s life can confuse the witnessing of our own. It can distort our view of our wants and needs. Observing someone else’s
Walking Around With Miles Of Canyon
I don’t think others know. They can’t see the depth. The vastness. It is the shock we feel when we visit the Grand Canyon for
Grief’s Tomorrowland
It is the future that we are afraid of the most, when someone we love dies. We are afraid of tomorrow. Tomorrow becomes the most
How To Cross The Street In 2020 And Other Lessons
I know you want to believe in a better decade. One that won’t break your heart. One that will only bring you joy and love.
My Evening With Robert Redford
The ice-cold evening froze my feet as I was making my way to my 7:00pm appointment. The grass was stiffened with snow bursts on it.
The Visit on December 25th
I am afraid of a thousand things. Afraid of losing love. More people. Moments that will never come back. Experiences that I will never have
Nobody Said Anything About The Physical Pain Of Grief
Nobody ever said anything about the physical pain of grief. The nausea. The breathlessness. The stiffness of the body. The ache at the back of
Go Back To The Battleground To Save Your Life
I had a mammogram scheduled this week, and I wasn’t just dreading it. I was petrified of it. And this was not the only time
A Melody And Not A Jingle
It’s the smell of food being made. The lights on the decorated trees. All, reminders of a life. That is no longer ours. The ghost
Will You Come And Sit With Me?
It’s heavy in there, isn’t it? It is as if you are carrying a whole arena. One, no one can see. No witness to it.
Catch Me If You Can
I was trying to explain how I feel to someone new in my life. She seemed lost. I could see it in her eyes, she